Mother’s Day

Resting by her side caressing her hand while laying my head under her nose. By doing so, I'm able to trace the patterns of her breath, and the breath of life breeze I feel as I put my head on her side. Desperately reassuring myself that because she is still breathing, she is still fighting. I begin to reminisce about all the good times but bothered and somewhat mad at myself for spending so much time upset by the actions that I at one time perceived as hurtful.

As a mother myself I now realize that we make a gang of mistakes and at times bad decisions concerning or children and family. But our intentions are always what we perceive as what was best for our children and entire family. Nevertheless, we love all of our children, but guess what we are human and mothering is learned as we go and grow...

While Sitting at my mother’s bedside I look back at all of the things we could have done, all of the time

we have lost...  All of the moments we shared and could have shared, movies, dinner, a cup of coffee, more laughs,

even a little gossip. Are those days gone forever, have I lost these moments never to have them again? Only wishing, begging and pleading thatI could have them once again...Praying and petitioning God to give me more chance and to not let this moment end. “Please don’t take my mother from me, I need her!!” At this moment I now realize that there were so many words left unspoken, thoughts or feeling never articulated. Only to realize I have to hold them forever, wishing I could have got a few things off my

chest... Or does it even matter at this point?

Right now as the hour’s progress and time begin to dissipate, all of those feelings or thoughts don’t even

matter at this point... 

The love you feel for your mother only overpowers this petty perception of past
hurt, frustration, and disappointment... All of it doesn’t matter or seem important anymore... The only frustrating part is not being able to turn back the hands of time... To retrieve or reclaim all of the
carelessly lost time and moments...

The only thing left at the point is the ability to hold hands, tell her how much you love her and sing a song at times to stifle the pain you both feel at possibly losing each other forever...

This mother’s day and every other day going forward, don’t let a day go by without whispering the words “I love you. If this applies to you, “FORGIVE, FORGIVE, and FORGIVE and MOVE ON!” With so much technology today there is NO excuse. This day and age you can text, email, DM, and IM, you choose! There is absolutely no excuse to not let your mother know precisely how much you love, adore and appreciate them. Remember your time is limited!